I keep myself at home at daytime and go to my God daughter's home to play with her every night. Xinxin's God parents invited me to go out with them this weekend for two days--they planned the trip special for me because then I can cry in the forest and to the sea. I don't want to disturb their feelings and make the trip not so enjoyable. But it's hard to refuse as they complained that I don't
take them as one family. I know they are trying to help me, but I am not ready now. In China, sometimes it's hard to refuse as it might hurt other people's feeling. Don't know how. I guess I should go with them or maybe should follow my heart.
I was weeping quietly when everyone is sleeping. But I still feel heart pain,I went to a park nearby alone and cried loudly yesterday for the first time after Xinxin's passing. It's good to let out. But my crying made people came around me to ask all kinds of questions.(if you have stayed in China, you can imagine the situation). I asked God to help me, a cleaner told me that God was not going to help only she can help me.(Don't know how people understands my words while I was crying as loudly as I can). And some people asked me to go to temples with them.
It's very hard to talk gospel here in China, so I just cried and cried until I was too tied. it really helped a lot.
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Oct.6th 2004--Jan.10th 2009
XinXin
Pray for Xinxin
Welcome to Shu Qin (pet name as Xinxin)'s web page. It has been provided to keep friends updated about Xinxin's progress as she battled stage 4 Neuroblastoma.
She was diagnosed on December 8th, 2007 in KK Women's and Children's hospital,Singapore. She had four rounds of Opec and Ojec Chemotherapy. And she had a twelve-hour surgery on April 2nd 2008. Then she had four rounds of N7 protocol since the biopsy of the tumor showed little response. She did two rounds of strong chemo( cyclophospha and topetecan)But the bone marrow trephine was still positive.
We came to Queen Mary Hospital Hong Kong on Oct2nd,2008 for further treatment. Xinxin had 2 cycle of chemotherapy (gemcitabine and oxaliplatin) and one round of 3F8.
Her disease had spread, very rapidly, to her pancreas and everywhere.
Xinxin passed away at 3pm on Jan 10th,2009(Saturday).Her last word is that DON'T WORRY ABOUT ME.
We miss Xinxin a lot but we won't worry about her anymore as she is living happily in God's arms.
As her parents we want to thank God for holding our hands walking with us and for giving us such a good gift that we learned a lot from and thank all the friends who are helping us. Thank you all for being our friends.
She was diagnosed on December 8th, 2007 in KK Women's and Children's hospital,Singapore. She had four rounds of Opec and Ojec Chemotherapy. And she had a twelve-hour surgery on April 2nd 2008. Then she had four rounds of N7 protocol since the biopsy of the tumor showed little response. She did two rounds of strong chemo( cyclophospha and topetecan)But the bone marrow trephine was still positive.
We came to Queen Mary Hospital Hong Kong on Oct2nd,2008 for further treatment. Xinxin had 2 cycle of chemotherapy (gemcitabine and oxaliplatin) and one round of 3F8.
Her disease had spread, very rapidly, to her pancreas and everywhere.
Xinxin passed away at 3pm on Jan 10th,2009(Saturday).Her last word is that DON'T WORRY ABOUT ME.
We miss Xinxin a lot but we won't worry about her anymore as she is living happily in God's arms.
As her parents we want to thank God for holding our hands walking with us and for giving us such a good gift that we learned a lot from and thank all the friends who are helping us. Thank you all for being our friends.
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