It seems I am crazy because the doctor asked if I need psychologist to talk with.
It started in the morning that I asked the doctor why Xinxin is suffering without treatment and why Xinxin can not have the radiotherapy asap. But the doctor explained that actually they have already tried their best to book Xinxin to see the professor in RT, They called the doctor instead of book in the computer.
It's really hard to calm down seeing Xinxin has pain and crying. I felt bad about being angry with the doctor. The worst thing is that when the doctor tried to explain Xinxin's situation later, I told him that I hate Neuroblastoma. The doctor seems to understand me and told me he also hates it. Isn't it funny that I didn't know what I was talking and answered Question A while the doctor was asking Question Z.
The doctor tried to tell me even with the treatment, it's hard to cure. I told him we will let her try every treatment as long as there is still a treatment. .
After the talk with the doctor, I asked Xinxin to pray for herself a cure. She told me can Jesus bring her home instead of staying at hospital, It's painful to listen to what she told me. But I still told her :"Jesus wants you to stay here because He wants the doctor to heal you."
The hospital chaplain came to see us and pray for Xinxin-- arranged by the nurses as they can tell I am extremely frustrated.
Xinxin is going to do the RT tomorrow morning 10;20. Please pray for her.